How many phrases can capture my predicament:
- Can't teach an old dog new tricks.
- Insanity - doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
- Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth.
- Sometimes in life, your situation will keep repeating itself until you learn your lesson.
My chink in my armour is most definitely my inability to say no. I also have a challenge not doing something all the time. I have a hard time sitting down and just doing nothing. But mostly, I have a challenge saying no to people, to adventure, to doing stuff.
And I guess I have a hard time not organizing groups of people to get together. No matter how awesome the adventure that can be created.
But all this comes at a price. And last week the price was a fever.
And when I get a fever it means I have to go in to the emergency ward and get checked for an infection as there is a fear that with my compromised immune system I am susceptible to stuff.
Fortunately I got over it, but the question remains. How do I keep moving, how do I keep earning an income, how do I keep gathering people and how do I keep collecting memories... while not over doing it all?
A good question.
I'm on it, but I have a feeling I have been tackling this question for many many years.
And the question remains. How do I create that delicate balance between doing and just being?