This is a two part story.
This story quickly falls on the heels of the Mind and Body Part 1 post I just put up.
During the conversation where we got the brilliant news that I could start Nivulomab (Nivo) the oncologist also said he wanted me to start putting back on weight. We nodded our heads and agreed that we would work on it.
Now that the restrictive pancreatic diet was being loosened a bit Tracey made me an incredible lentil stew. It was actually in the pancreatic diet recipe book that she had sourced so we truly were not pushing the agenda too far.
But lentils were a new addition and damn it tasted great.
Till they went from lentils to lentkills.
And this song was absolutely wrong. Beans kill you when yer dealing with what I am going through.
Beans, beans, the musical fruit
The more you eat, the more you toot
The more you toot, the better you feel
So we have beans at every meal.
I was buckled over in two. I lay in bed from 10pm to 2:49am farting and burping.
I was the worst roommate ever. Tracey finally gave up and left. But not before we had a bunch of laughs. Renaming it lentkills bringing out the biggest laugh.
I don't blame her. I don't think we will ever have sex again. You can't un-hear or un-smell that stuff.
But the worst part wasn't the pain or the smelly toots. The worst part was that I thought I may have blown my chance to start the recliner sessions.
I spent hours deep breathing and focusing on a positive and happy pancreas. I focused on this just being a funny story that I would tell on gatherwithjim.
I felt like sleep was my only hope so I channeled the lessons I had learned earlier in the day. So when I finally fell asleep sometime after 2:49 (the last time I saw on the clock) I was in a better place. Still in pain, still tooting. But I was calm.
Woke up alone in the morning with a laugh and a smile. Pain was gone.
While I now think less of beans, it's not their fault that they don't get along with my belly but I'm not going to spend a lot of time finding ways for them to get along. They are just going to have to agree to disagree and stay away from each other for now.
But I am going to a recliner session today. Nothing is going to remove the smile.
I'm totally cool beans.