Love is one of those emotions that is difficult to define but I think I’m swimming in it.
I can tell you that I am feeling so much of what I think is love these days that I think my heart grew three times over the last month. Which actually gives me the strength of ten grinches plus two.
I’m presently sitting in my comfy chair here at Rosedale Hospice awaiting the start of Dave Kelly Live. The DKL team kindly set up a YouTube live stream that will allow me to see the show.
I get to watch Tracey and Jack give Button Button Awards to Dr Ruether, my Oncologist, and Marnie Cardell for their incredible partnership over the last six years. They were such great humans and their compassion and teamwork was secondary to none. Our family owes them everything for how they kept us together over such a tough time. Being able to honour them tonight makes me so very happy. I think that’s an example of love right?
At the 9pm show Tracey and Jack are giving the Button Button Award to Catherine and Kristy of Rosedale Hospice. As you could see by recent posts how I have fallen in love with everything Rosedale. They take care of my every need medically, physically, emotionally and spiritually. The staff is beyond compare for how the understand the human element in the dying process.
And yes I know it’s been over 30 days that I’ve been in Rosedale so I’m kinda doing the extended life version again. But maybe it’s what’s really given me the deep appreciation as I’ve seen so many moments where the team have helped someone along to their next place. I think it’s love I feel for these staff members.
And the way in which they continue to make me comfortable, even during the tough times, is such an example of loving caring humans. I love each and every one of them.
Then the show started and bam I was hit with so much love. Almost too much love was directed my way but I of course absorbed it all.
This show is like a little factory of friends, love, music, live art, incredible people and I consider it the nicest hour you will ever experience.
Of course seeing Tracey and Jack hand out the awards swole my heart a another few times. There is no chance for Grinch like attitude here.
While I still don’t have a pure understanding of love I do know that I couldn’t be any happier with all that happening around me at this moment. So. Much. Love.