Some days are tough. Of that there is no doubt. But as you have read throughout my blog there is inspiration everywhere if you are just open to receiving it. Tonight I was in the bath, surfing the bookface and bam there it was. The answer to something that has been buzzing in my head for a while. 

I have written about how I was rattled by the negative news last month, and yet I haven't put my finger on the root cause for my inability to get over the hurdle. Well, tonight I got over it. And this video did it for me.

The challenge with this journey is the lather, rinse, repeat of two weeks on, one week off of powerful drugs. The relentless knowledge that every two weeks I feel lousy for a week. Three pills taken two hours after breakfast then an hour before getting to have lunch. Pills at night, and on a bad week the two hour bath, etc. Such endless regimentation that is very difficult to get used to. Especially when the immediate outcome is physically troublesome. It is so hard to get used to. 

But I watched this video and got my juju back. I think it was this line that did it for me:

I'm tired of getting used to the day. So I will try, I will try, I will try...full lyrics below, but have a listen to this very special woman to get the full inspiration. Wow.

Yup, why have I focused on the getting used to the day when in fact the day is the day is the day. And it's all in how I use the day, not how do I get used to the day. 

So, now it's back to being in the day and living it as large as I can. Sure I take pills and my body hurts, so what? The sky is a beautiful blue, the trees are magnificent, both companies are brilliant and filled with such special humans and most importantly my wife is amazeballs and my kids make me so proud.

My life is good and my days are truly great. 

Thanks Mandy Harvey - you made my day.

Mandy Harvey Lyrics - Try

I don't feel the way I used to
The sky is grey much more than it is blue
But I know one day I will get through
And I'll take my place again
If I would try. If I would try.

There is no one for me to blame 

Cause I know the only thing in my way is me

I don't live the way I want to

That whole picture never came into view 

But I'm tired of getting used to
The Day
So I will try. So I will try

If I would try. If I would try.

Life is easy.

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